The hardest two minutes of my day.....

by Teresa

Conversation with a six year old:

6yr old: hi
me: hi sweetie
6yr old: why is everybody crying?
me: because we miss your mommy so much. She was so special and everybody here loves her and your family so much.
6yr old: she's in heaven
my mom: my mommy is in heaven too
6yr old: really?
my mom: yeah, and i am going to see her again someday and you will see your mommy too.
6yr old: okay
my mom: and she will never leave you just cause she's in heaven. She is and angel and watching over you forever.
6yr old: okay
me: is that the card you made your mommy (a crayon drawn card is inside the coffin by Taryn's head from each of the three children. Hers has a picture of her and her mommy . It says "your the best mommy ever"
6yr old: yes, I made it. That's my mommy and that's me (pointing to card). But I made an even better card and I am going to put it on a balloon and send it to heaven for her.
me: she will love that
6yr old: touch her
me: ????
6yr old: touch her
me: *I stroke her cheek* and I physically feel my heart break. Seriously...it actually hurt to beat.
6yr old: isn't she cold? (she reaches over my hand to rub her mommy's hair)
me: yes. That's because she is not in there. That's just her house on earth and it's empty now. The real mommy (her soul) is in heaven with Jesus.
6yr old: yep. And because all her blood is gone.

And that was my cue to hug her ,walk away from the open casket and find a corner to cry in.

“Tears are words the heart can't express”